november

November November. 

Its so hard to write back-blog because a lot of the details are gone. But then sometimes you see weird themes for the month. I just remember November being kind of hard. The Bowlers were here all month, well, Nan and Pops came for a month. Nan helped out in Seminary a lot. I think the seminary fatigue was beginning to set in with me, and then insecurity as a teacher. Which kind of ebbed out as insecurity and unhappiness in other facets of my life.  So I mentally struggled during November. Letti, I'm sure felt the pang of lonliness being the only sibling not here so she came out with some of her kids, and half stayed with us. Its easy to look back now and see that some of my feeling were just me being self-centered.  Feeling left out but then again not really wanting to be hanging out all the time. I did not feel myself. Its silly, but it felt real and sad at the time. It was a hard month. Then I felt horrible because its supposed to be a happy and grateful and I was depressed. Like I couldn't shake it. It did make me appreciate and rely on my own little family much more.

The kids had a great month so that was good. They loved seeing Nan and Pops & Yaya and Aunts and Uncles and cousins.

My Mom came down for Thanksgiving, at the end of the month, these pics are from her. Cody went and played soccer one morning with Locke.